Calm Among the Clutter

Calm Among the Clutter
by Kiara Boynton

My peace I give you, not as the world gives
John 14:27

Most days my mind feels like a storm. Thoughts running in every direction, living in the constant unknown of what the day may bring, grief creeps in without warning, sadness that causes tears, my to do list is always waiting for me, but so are my kids and my house? It's full of the beautiful and exhausting chaos that comes with parenting alone. There's homework that needs to be done, dinner that's probably missing vegetables, piles of clothes that need attention, little voices that call me "mommy" every few minutes and moments that stretch me farther than I ever thought I could. It is so joyful, but it's overwhelming too.

Even in the middle of all of that noise God's peace still finds me. What a mighty God we serve! It shows up right when I feel like I am going to explode. When I can pause long enough to remember that the Lord has provided for me every step of the way. He has met every need, even the ones I don't know how to put into words. When everything around me feels loud and I can't silence my thoughts. He reminds me that he is steady, safe, and sovereign.

It doesn't mean the laundry will be folded, or that my kids won't argue. It means that God's presence sits with me in the mess, the noise, and all of the overwhelming parts of my day. His peace doesn't erase any of the chaos but it allows me to be steady right in the middle of it. 

My prayer is that right now where you are, right in this very moment that you feel that same peace. Whether your life feels chaotic like mine or quiet, whether today is filled with grief or joy, whether the kids are running around or finally asleep, may you sense the presence of a God who provides, protects, and gives peace that doesn't depend on circumstances. He is here. He is holding all things while also holding you.